January 5th, 2012
02:59 PM ET
When Demi Moore and her estranged husband Ashton Kutcher seemed to be having marital problems earlier this year, rare was the moment that someone wasn't pointing out how slender 49-year-old Moore looked.
"I think I sit today in a place of greater acceptance of my body, and that includes not just my weight but all of the things that come with your changing body as you age, to now experiencing my body as extremely thin," she says in the magazine's February issue. "Thin in a way that I never imagined somebody would be saying to me, 'You're too thin, you don't look good.'"
Moore elaborates on what she calls a "love-hate" relationship with her body, saying that she's learned to appreciate all that it's carried her through, including three pregnancies.
The actress then grew even more personal, opening up on what scares her.
"I used to think what scared me was the idea of being abandoned," Moore says. "I think what scares me is not having the courage to reach my full potential...And I think there is no way to reach your fullest potential if you don't really find the love of yourself. If I were to answer it just kind of bold-faced, I would say that what scares me is that I'm going to ultimately find out at the end of my life that I'm really not loveable, that I'm not worthy of being loved. That there's something fundamentally wrong with me."
Moore doesn't mention her recent announcement that she plans to divorce Ashton Kutcher, but she does say that she's found freedom in focusing more on the present moment.
"Somebody wrote something to me that said, 'Don't let your wounds make you become someone you're not,'" she recalls. "Letting go of the outcome. Truly being in the moment. Not reflecting on the past. Not projecting into the future. That's freedom. Not caring more about what other people think more than what you think. That's freedom."
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