August 31st, 2010
12:26 AM ET
Vanity Fair caught up with Lindsay Lohan at the moment her world was spiraling in a legal tailspin, about one week before she started her jail sentence for violating probation from a 2007 drunk driving case.
So with her legal problems fresh on her mind, the 24-year-old star had quite a bit to say about her career plans, the mistakes she's made and the rumors that she has a substance abuse problem - insinuations that she denounces in the interview with Vanity Fair.
“If I were the alcoholic everyone says I am, then putting a [SCRAM] bracelet on would have ended me up in detox, in the emergency room, because I would have had to come down from all the things that people say I’m taking and my father says I’m taking,” she told the magazine in an interview that will appear in the October issue. “So that says something, because I was fine.”
The 24-year-old star also insisted that she’s “never abused prescription drugs. I never have—never in my life,” Lohan said. “I have no desire to. That’s not who I am. I’ve admitted to the things that I’ve done—to, you know, dabbling in certain things and trying things ’cause I was young and curious and thought it was like, O.K., ’cause other people were doing it and other people put it in front of me. And I see what happened in my life because of it.”
At this point, Lohan is trying to regain her focus, aiming to not only learn "how to continue to get through the trauma that my father has caused in my life," but also to get her career back on track.
“I want my career back. I want the respect that I had when I was doing great movies. And if that takes not going out to a club at night, then so be it,” she told Vanity Fair. “I don’t care what anyone says. I know that I’m a damn good actress. … And I know that in my past I was young and irresponsible—but that’s what growing up is. You learn from your mistakes.”
Lohan’s understanding of how her tumultuous young adulthood has unfolded is similar to her mother’s recounting of her daughter's coming of age during an interview with Matt Lauer on the "Today" show.
“You can tell your children whatever you want to tell them, but they’re going to do what they’re going to do when they turn 18, 19,” Dina told Lauer. “It’s a whole ‘nother world when you’re allowed to live your life and experience things with failure and success and come through it.”
While her mother found fault with the celebrity tabloids for spreading “propaganda” about Lohan, the actress herself admitted that she would look to those publications as a way to find out more about the other stars she admired. Lohan called it “really scary and sad… I would look up to those girls… the Britneys and whatever. And I would be like, I want to be like that.”
From Lohan’s perspective, her problems have been inextricably tied to the company she's kept. “So many people around me would say they cared for the wrong reasons. A lot of people were pulling from me, taking from me and not giving. I had a lot of people that were there for me for, you know, the party,” Lohan explained to Vanity Fair. “I think just the second I didn’t have [structure] anymore—I was 18, 19—with a ton of money and no one really here to tell me that I couldn’t do certain things … And I see where that’s gotten me now, and I don’t like it.”
To read more of Lohan’s interview, pick up the October issue of Vanity Fair, hitting newsstands on September 7.
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