August 25th, 2010
11:40 AM ET
Heidi Montag has something she wants to get off her chest: Yes, she feels like a boob for getting those super-sized breast implants.
In the new issue of Life & Style, "The Hills" star - whose plastic surgeon, Dr. Frank Ryan, died in a car accident last week - reveals that she regrets boosting her bust to a size G and plans to take them down a notch.
"I'm desperate to go back to normal," she told the magazine. "I'm downgrading and going a little smaller, to a D or a double D."
The spotlight-loving Montag revealed in January that she had a complete plastic surgery overhaul, undergoing 10 procedures in one day, including breast and buttock augmentation, a brow lift, a chin reduction and liposuction. Her implants, however, have kept her in constant pain and made her self-conscious.
"I have major anxiety about it," she said. "I was taking painkillers but they weren't working so I stopped. It hurt either way."
What's more, Montag's over-the-top upper body has left her unable to do simple things, like hug her pets or exercise. "It's heartbreaking," she said. "I cant live an everyday life."
In the meantime, 23-year-old Montag is searching for a new plastic surgeon, but isn't convinced that she'll have much success. "There's just no fixing it. Dr. Ryan knows the work he did, he knows everything," she said. "I feel trapped in my own body."
As for ex-husband Spencer Pratt's plans to release an alleged sex tape of her, Montag tells Life & Style, "I'm not aware of his filming me, but I wouldn't put it past Spencer. He's a sneaky guy and has little cameras everywhere that he got from China."
Not surprisingly, she's trying to stop Pratt, 26, from making the rumored tapes public. "I'm mortified at the thought that people could be looking at me naked before I had the surgery."
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